Monday morning blues...
I'm singing a redemption song so that my Father in Heaven will have mercy on Giovanni. It's hard as a parent to make decisions that will affect him forever, and if anything goes wrong I will be responsible. So far no medication has been able to control Giovanni's infantile spasms and so the doctor's have moved onto the next level. That level where the drug is super dangerous yet we have absolutely no choice but to use it? Yup we have finally reached there and it hurts. It hurts that I'm going to give Giovanni medication that may possibly impair his vision after just a few weeks of using it (no I'm not lying I will post the link and you can check it out yourself) however I've been told by doctors it will definitely stop the spasms. Now how do you leave a decision like that in my hands? I wish the world knew the love I have for my son, I would lick the ground for him. And yes these are the exact moments when I ask God why and if I have done something wrong he...